Sunday, January 30, 2011

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5 I wait for the LORD, my soul waits,
and in his word I put my hope.
6 My soul waits for the Lord
more than watchmen wait for the morning,
more than watchmen wait for the morning.

7 O Israel, put your hope in the LORD,
for with the LORD is unfailing love
and with him is full redemption.

Psalm 130:5-7

Friday, January 28, 2011

dreams do come true

12:10 PM me: hii
i had a dream last night that i got tuesday off
and that i could go to leaders mtg
hahahaah
hopefully that dream comes true...
12:11 PM Mallory: hahaha
your dreams are so realizsitc!
i can spell
12:12 PM me: ahaahah
12:13 PM yeah
they are...
sometimes unfortunately
cuz then i wake up
and i'm like.
dangit!
i really want a day off!
haha




BUT GUESS WHAT. I found out today that I DO indeed get Tuesday off next week! WHEEEEE.
Betcha never saw anyone so excited to go to leader's meeting. Yeap. that's me.

Thursday, January 27, 2011

Ed McCully


Written by Elisabeth Elliot, the wife of Jim Elliott, a Christian missionary-martyr to the once-savage Auca Indians of Ecuador, Through Gates of Splendor recounts the stories of the 5 missionary-martyrs who responded to God's call for them to share His love to this particularly hostile tribe.

Here are two short videos that give you a good glimpse of their stories:


I wanted to share this particular passage because it struck me how precious God's call was to these young men, who really, were leaders of their age and had super bright futures awaiting them. They were gifted, driven, men of good character, talented, ambitious, and yet, simply because they experienced God's great love for them, they so joyfully and willingly laid down their lives and their futures for the chance to share this same love with people who had never before heard the name of Jesus. They really lived out Acts 20:24 and Philippians 3:8. Whew. So encouraging, yet so rebuking all at the same time...

I know it's long, but I do encourage you to read through it all :)

[p 41-43 of 'Through Gates of Splendor', emphasis added mine]

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"When Ed entered Wheaton College in the fall of 1945, it was not with the idea of becoming a foreign missionary. He chose business and economics as his major.

Six feet two inches tall, weighing one hundred and ninety pounds, he soon distinguished himself as star end on Wheaton's championship football team. His surprising speed for so big a man made him a track star as well. His track coach, the national champion miler, Gil Dodds, tells of an incident in Ed's senior year. Ten 440-yard men were in training for a special meet in Boston; from the ten, give would be picked to go. Ed wanted to go to Boston. So, in spite of the fact that he was a 100-220-yard man and had never run a 440 in his life, he asked if he could try out with the others. It was typical of Ed that he made the relay team by one-tenth of a second. 'He was always coming through with the impossible when the chips were down,' was Dodds' concluding comment.

Ed was at his best on the platform. His simple, direct approach to his audience enabled him, with no formal training whatever in public speaking, to win the 1949 championship in the National Hearst Oratorical Contest in San Francisco, a competition in which over ten thousand students had competed. His essay on Alexander Hamilton was nearly memorized by his classmates, who insisted on his reciting it at every class gathering. ...

Such was the spirit which Ed, senior class president, had generated. Of his election my brother Dave wrote: 'Ed was elected (or shouted in) without a contrary vote. I frankly doubt if anyone even entertained the idea of proposing anyone else for the position. It was a foregone and unanimously accepted conclusion.'

The following year Ed McCully, having turned his thinking toward the bar, entered law school at Marquette University. At the beginning of his second year there he took a job as hotel clerk at night, intending to spend the time studying. But God, who ordains men of His own choosing and moves in them to the accomplishment of His eternal purposes, had other plans. Ed told his Wheaton classmate Jim [Elliot] about it in a letter dated September 22, 1950:

'Since taking this job things have happened. I've been spending my free time studying the Word. Each night the Lord seemed to get hold of me a little more. Night before last I was reading in Nehemiah. I finished the book and read it through again. Here was a man who left everything as far as position was concerned to go do a job nobody else could handle. And because he went the whole remnant back in Jerusalem got right with the Lord. Obstacles and hindrances fell away and a great work was done. Jim, I couldn't get away from it. The Lord was dealing with me. On the way home yesterday morning I took a long walk and came to a decision which I know is of the Lord. In all honesty before the Lord I say that no one or nothing beyond Himself and the Word has bearing upon what I've decided to do. I have one desire now -- to live a life of reckless abandon for the Lord, putting all my energy and strength into it. Maybe He'll send me someplace where the name of Jesus Christ is unknown. Jim, I'm taking the Lord at His word, and I'm trusting Him to prove his word. It's kind of like putting all your eggs in one basket, but we've already put our trust in Him for salvation, so why not do it as far as our life is concerned. If there's nothing to this business of eternal life we might as well lose everything in one crack and throw our present life away with our life hereafter. But if there is something to it, then everything else the Lord says must hold true likewise. Pray for me, Jim.
...
'Two days ago I was a law student. Today, I'm an untitled nobody. Thanks, Jim, for the intercession on my behalf. Don't let up. And brother, I'm really praying for you too as you're making preparation to leave. I only wish I were going with you.' "

[Ed McCully, Pete Fleming, Jim Elliot]
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I'm pretty starstruck given the descriptions of these five young men, but what's even more astonishing is how worthy GOD is, that he makes even bright young men like these forsake all else for the sake of following after Him. They consider their lives nothing in comparison to the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus their Lord.

My prayer is that I would come to know this same Jesus the way they knew Him, seeing Him as SO valuable that I would forsake all else for the sake of knowing Him and making Him known.

1.26.11

some things that brightened up my day:
- started reading "through the gates of splendor" that mark lent me!
- went into work an hour late
- left work 3 hours early, so worked an all-time low of 7 hours!!!!
- got to catch the tail end of prayer meeting
- yogurt + blueberries + sliced almonds
- hummus with raw cauliflower and broccoli
- walking through fresh, fluffy, powdery snow in my new super waterproof rainboots


PS - have you guys ever heard thunder in a snowstorm?! so strange... but I guess that's why they call it a snowstorm.

Sunday, January 23, 2011

double-agents

It's tiring trying to live two different lives at the same time, no?

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

Romans 8:1-2

Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus, because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit of life set me free from the law of sin and death.

Sunday, January 16, 2011

1/24th of the way through 2011

brief recap of 2011 thus far =P it's been a pretty good start, I must say... who knows what the rest of the year will have in store!


[1.2.11]
had the class of 2010 over to my apt for hot pot & sharing :)

[1.2.11]

[1.7.11]
had a chance to hang out with this lovely lady, catching up and chatting just like old times :)

[1.9.11]
HOME!!!!
lunch with the fambam and my brother's new gf! I love me my peking duck and hoisin sauce...

[1.11.11]
hanging out with Scarlet (and her new red beamer), getting stuck in horrible LA traffic, walking the santa monica pier, over-stuffing ourselves with kalbi at AYCE kbbq!

[1.11.11]
bike tour of USC, dinner, and checking out Epic with my brother

[1.12.11]
every trip back home comes with great, cheap asian food -- this is $2.99/lb deep fried garlicy crab goodness.

[1.16.11]
4-course pre-fixe brunch at bar boulud! (pics here on out from lauren's camera!)

[1.16.11]
yay for great friends and great food

[1.16.11]
double yay for my 30% employee discount and many, many extra dishes, "compliments of the kitchen" ^____^
we ended up getting 1 extra meat dish and 3 extra desserts, all freeeeeeee. When they brought out the desserts, they just kept bringing them...and bringing them...and bringing them. I was so happy! Hahahahaha....

[1.16.11]
and we devoured them all.
3 hour-long brunch...must be a record =P

Monday, January 10, 2011

ze future

Every visit back home comes with a guarantee that I'll have a chat with my dad about my future. Sometimes, it's helpful. Other times, it's really stressful. Today was one of the stressful times, mostly because now more than ever, I have nooo idea what to do with my life, not even what next step to take!

Blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah. I'm so losssssssstttttttttttttttttttttttt.

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

Yep.

LOL. Talk about 'speak-of-the-devel'-type moments. I was just looking through all my blog posts of 2010, and I came across this one, which is actually pretty hilarious to me, reading it minutes after posting my most recent post. It's funny when you re-hear advice after actually going through them in a much more real way. My old Taiwan chef's advice post-working-at-DANIEL carries a lot more weight and truth now than it did pre-working-at-DANIEL. Hahahaaha....

Anyways, here's the blurb to re-iterate THE lesson of 2010.

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Talking to my chef was really good. He told me, "It's okay if you don't always do well all the time. Just take things slow. Make sure you have a plan of what you have to do before you actually start anything, otherwise you won't succeed. Remember to keep a happy attitude at class or work. Be more joyful. This way, your work won't feel like such a burden. And as for the hours you have to put in every day and the strain that it might put on your friends and family -- you get used to it. You and your family. It'll all be okay in the end. Don't worry so much! Don't be so nervous. Just stay happy and remember to take things slow. You're in no rush for anything. Put your mind to it, and I know you'll succeed.

"Also, most importantly, don't be afraid of suffering or hardships."

"What do you mean?" I asked.

"Just don't be afraid of it!"

And finally, it made sense to me. Why should I be so afraid of going through hardships? As I think about class, work, life..., I guess I realize that hardships are and will be part of the whole package. God tells us to endure hardship, to rejoice in suffering (Heb 12:7, Rom 5:3), and for a good reason. It does build discipline, character, perseverance -- all things that are good to have. So for me, the (constructive) criticism I receive or mistakes I make will only help me learn what it takes and how to get to that point where I can be a better chef, student, person... Without making those mistakes, how would I ever learn and improve?

2010

I thought a lot about posting a 2010-recap picture post, but I don't think I'll end up doing one b/c I'm too lazy to find pictures and post them =P Hahaha... But I do want to write a bit on 2010, since it was a pretty monumental year for me, and I feel I owe it to my future self to write something about this year...

2010 was probably hands down one of the hardest years of my life thus far. Granted, my three months of 2009 in Taiwan were pretty miserable and lonely, but I don't think I cried as much or was as unhappy in my life as I was in 2010. On the upside though, through those struggles, I learned how to be resilient and developed a pretty high tolerance for pain. To make an analogy -- it's like when I burn myself (which happened a lot a lot a lot my first few weeks at work). My first major burn happened when the espresso machine exploded on me with 29384-degree scalding espresso right before service started; and let me tell you -- it was t e r r i b l e. My hand had a blister the size of a small animal and my confidence and composure were completely and utterly shaken -- all in the midst of being new to a station and having 5 different people yelling at me for doing everything wrong. But from that moment on, every next burn I got, even if it really hurt, just didn't seem nearly as bad when compared to my first huge espresso burn. It was like declining marginal pain, to borrow from an economics term.

And so it is with life. Early 2010 was rough, yos. But I got over it, shed the tears I needed to, and moved on. Then mid-end 2010 was rough, too. But I already had experience with sucky situations. Like when I get a burn, I know that though it hurts like crazy in the moment, it will eventually heal after it goes through all the stages of nasty puss oozing and skin peeling. In the end, all that remains will be a tiny scar, maybe to remind me that it did impact my life. (And who knows, maybe with enough Vitamin E oil and scar cream, the scars will completely disappear!) And it's like that with life, too. It hurts and it sucks at times, but eventually, things will get better.

There is the faintest shadow on my hand from that espresso burn nearly 3.5 months ago, and hopefully one day it will blend back to match the color of the rest of my hand. And one day, maybe the scars in my heart from everything this past year will no longer be scars and my heart will return back to its original state. But regardless of whether they do or not, I do know that I have come out of 2010 a stronger, more resilient person, more ready to take on the challenges that await me in 2011 and beyond, because I know (from a lot of experience at this point) that there's a process for everything, and at the end of the day, it really will all be okay.