branchin' out. no pun intended

For those of you who are still following this 10PM bedtime and haven't discovered my new one yet.... well.... I have a new one (while I'm in Taiwan!).

http://taiwildchildwu.blogspot.com

Enjoy :)

commitment

I've grown an unhealthy affinity to watching wedding videos and looking at engagement/wedding pictures, especially given the almost unreal amount of weddings & engagements of friends & church members around me. There are two particular blogs, Wayne Yuan and StillMotion, that I love visiting because they have a knack of capturing the couples' love for one another in a way that just makes you believe that they were meant for one another. A few months ago, I may have looked at these pictures and fantasized about the fairy-tale love that the couple shared with one another since day 1 of dating, but now I believe I have a deeper appreciation for their relationship because I'm learning that loving someone selflessly is very far from the "happily ever after" ideal that is realistically impossible to have. Working through arguments, staying humble, and acting contrary to what our own sinful hearts desire are all painfully difficult, but the beauty of marriage is that people are actively choosing to commit themselves to one another in full knowledge of the pain they'll undergo. (Of course there are many joys along the way). Man, relationships aren't easy, but the hardships refine it to make it all the more beautiful.

PS - Carol looks g-o-r-g-e-o-u-s in her wedding dress and tea dress. Bryan's a lucky guy. hehe. Watch their wedding video // look at their pictures!

good soil, sunlight, water, and a little bit of love.

okay, maybe I should write something more substantial here so you readers don't all forget about me.

As most of you know or have heard, I'm heavily considering going to Taiwan to work for a few months in the restaurant industry before enrolling in pastry school back here in SoHo. The "end goal" is to open up my own place with Mikey, whether truck or restaurant or cafe. We want to share God's love and bring joy to people through our food. The different inputs needed to achieve this end goal are experience, training, and capital. This is partially why I'm going to Taiwan & enrolling in pastry school... cuz I'm pretty sure I'm not good enough right now to start a business.

"future", "career", "making a living" -- these are all such loaded words that carry heavy connotations of what we, what I am supposed to build for myself as a middle-class, asian-american recent business-student college graduate. I feel so much pressure to make money and plan out the next 5, next 10 years of my life. Honestly, I just want to make people happy through my food... yet this simple desire is poisoned by the "weeds", the worries of this world and the pressures that are placed on me. My dream already has been compromised, and I fear that it will continue to die out as I get more and more involved with pursuing this goal.

The journey feel so long, and my endurance is ever so weak. What if I don't ever finish this race...

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what am I doing with my life....?!

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the only thing that makes sense in this life is Jesus.