growing up

I keep going back and forth, back and forth, back and forth. Is it time for a change, or will it only set me up for unnecessary heartache?

what to doooooooo.

endurance

some days it feels like I can't do it anymore... the intensity, the pressure, the stress, the busyness. the french. but as my chef so appropriately pointed out today... I've been here 10 months. surely I can last 4 more weeks...

besides, at the end of the day, "it's not like we're saving lives or anything. we're just making pastries... so chill out. relax." -DA

a family affair

I bought meself a new bike yesserday :) looksie like bailey & alfie want in on the fun, too!

Love and mercy fill my senses
I am thirsty for Your presence, Lord
Come and fill me up

oblivion and ignorance

sometimes I feel like the life I'm living is so un-real, and not in the "cool!" meaning, but in the "is this really what life is like?" sense. I live in a such a bubble, oblivious to the brokenness of the world around me. gotta get out there, nancy!

kitchen gadgets

Belinda bought me a cool popsicle maker today http://www.zokuhome.com/pages/products-quickpop-maker

which brings my collection of kitchen electronics/gadgets to an astonishing (and even alarming) size...

-kitchenaid stand mixer

-kitchen torch

-ice cream maker

-food processor

-tart pans and madeleine pans and more random sheet pans

-ebelskiver pan (if and when Mark and I ever end up using it....)

-a bazillion types of flavorings and extracts

-pounds and pounds of Valrhona chocolate

-two kitchen scales

-my whole toolkit that I got from school, filled with piping tips and dipping forks and more spatulas than you know what to do with

-half a pound of fresh vanilla beans that I have still yet to use....

lucky

I was flipping through my picasa today, and I saw that I had exactly 888 pictures under my "Taiwan" folder. Talk about luck & fate! =P My dad would be so proud...

6 weeks

until I am lying on the shores of a jersey beach with 4 of my closest gal pals, with no more anxiety of having to return to a French kitchen.

can't waaaaaaaiitttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt!!!!!!!!!