closure?

I was talking to an old friend today about my potential move coming up, and he asked me what I was doing to get ready for my transition out of NY. I replied sheepishly that I wasn't doing much because I wasn't even 100% sure that I would be moving... But then, I admitted that I was actually just too scared and too sad to have to start planning a goodbye party. Once I start telling people I definitely am moving, it's going to feel so... finalized and imminent, ya know? 


He encouraged me to recognize the importance of getting closure from this chapter and facing that fear because I won't want to be carrying that emotional baggage into my next chapter. I should acknowledge all the great joys of what happened in these past 6.5 years, realize that saying goodbye doesn't mean that I'm ending these friendships, and mentally and emotionally prepare myself to dive into the next step of my life, without all of the longing and strings attached to my previous chapter. And at the end of the day, if I cry, I cry. (which will happen a lot, trust me). These emotions are all part of our human experience; I shouldn't try to be repressing them or denying what's about to happen in my life... Plus, when I really think about it, I wouldn't want to leave NY any other way than to spend time praising God for all that He's done in my life here.


So I guess this is it, guys.


I'm moving.


*cue tears*