friends are not forever...

Today, I found out that two pretty key people in my church might leave New York soon due to job situation stuffs... I think I had always just assumed that everyone would stick around, but today it finally really hit me. People are going to leave.

Danny was the first one, and it definitely hasn't been the same without him. My dear Lilo is leaving soon, and the more I talk about it the more both of us get sad. Flo might go to Scotland, JPai is definitely off to law school elsewhere, people that I've grown accustomed to seeing on a weekly basis will soon be hundreds and thousands of miles away... and this is probably just the start of a bigger wave of an exodus out of New York City. Whether it's because we're growing up, because there are fewer jobs available in the city, or whatever else, sticking around just isn't as implicit as it used to be...

Lilo & I had a really sad conversation leaving DP today about the circles of friends that we make.. Leaving high school friends is really difficult, but there are always the summer vacations and family that keep us grounded in that city. College friends create relationships that should last for life, but unless you end up living&working in the same place post-grad, chances are the closeness will decrease exponentially. You try to find a new circle of friends in each next stage of life, but as you make new friends each time around, you start to become more closed off because of the disillusionment attached with the lack of constancy and the tiredness of making and maintaning new friendships... Then once you get married / have kids, your family takes up a huge chunk of your life, and soon you have very very few close peer friends.

This course of life just seems so .... sad.

I feel like this post doesn't really convey all that I want to say or the sadness that I feel, but maybe it's something that you have to discover and learn for yourself, because as much as I hear people tell me that change is inevitable, I don't really feel the magnitude of it until I am immersed in the transience of relationships, environment, etc...

:(